As the days leading up to my departure narrow and I get closer and closer to boarding a plane that will plant me nearly 5,000 miles from home, I’ve been ambushed by friends and family alike with what has seemingly lent itself as the go-to question: “Are you excited?”.
And while the obvious answer is YES, I’ve found it quite difficult to formulate an accurate response.
Of course I’m excited! I get to study and work abroad for an 8 week period (I’m heading to Lebanon for a few weeks following Prishtina). While in the Balkans, I will immerse myself in a cultural landscape that I have only scarcely touched on through previous schooling. I will learn through interactions with new people and my new environment. I will expand upon my horizons and in doing so, I will expand upon my understanding of conflict and resolution. All of this excites me greatly.
So why do I have such a difficult time returning a simple answer to a simple question?
Because while I am excited, I am also anxious.
Not in a bad “keeps you up at night” kind of way, but I’ve been harvesting an energy that I’m quite eager to spend.
I’m going to Kosovo for the experience of traveling to a foreign place, but with a distinct purpose and motivation. I want to find stories, and I want to leave with a body of work that best represents and communicates the stories that I pursue.
One can prepare for something like this by reading and researching as much as possible prior to arrival, and that I have, but only with my feet planted firmly on Kosovar soil, will I know my advantages and my limitations.
Today I am packing my bag full of journals and pens, and preparing to roll with the punches.
Put, simply: I am very excited for the journey ahead.